“One made it in life when One bring a child to this world” – that is a common statement that I hear among human beings. When a woman come up with age, and didn’t give birth yet, she became possessed with wanting to deliver a child. She becomes crazy. All she ever thinks about is having children. Fascinating.
I was one of those women. I remember 2 years ago, I told my father that if he will assist me with money, I will get pregnant. I wanted a child so much and that is all I could think about. I was jealous at all those who are my age and have children. I wanted a child of my own to such an extant that I never stop to consider why I am experiencing that feeling, why my body signify to me that I need to bring a child to this world.
When I started to consider things within common sense, I’ve started to see and realize the origin point of how I manifested this experience. We taught to believe that the family is the most important thing in life and that we must get married and create a family. If we won’t, our life is a waste.
The first point I saw was self interest – I was possessed with bringing my own child, from my own physical body without considering that there are so many babies and children out here in this world that do not have parents. Those babies and children seek for a family, they seek a warm touch but no one consider them as the first option.
I worked a lot with the point of letting go the self interest of having my own child. Slowly, my physical experience changed and I no longer yarned for a child of my own.
But still inside me, I wanted a child though I didn’t care where it came from anymore.
The desire for children was silence for awhile because it wasn’t ‘Here’ so it wasn’t relevant. It became relevant when I started my agreement with my partner.
When it was ‘here’, I became possessed again. Though, because I’m walking a process of self honesty, I had to look carefully at why I’m becoming possessed again.
At that time, all I wanted to do was to run away from my life in Israel and it was convenient for me to project myself as a mother. why? Because it was a back door from walking as what is best for all and actually stand as an example, as influencing point in terms of Equality as What’s best for all.
I wanted to raise children instead of going to politics or working in the money system. I preferred staying at home and upbringing my children while my partner is out there, standing up for me as all of humanity.
We had many talks about children, in most of them, I wanted to push my partner to agree with me that we must do it as fast as we can cause I’m getting old.
Slowly, I became more stable within my application and I started to stand up in the Money system. I’ve realized that I’m actually heading towards becoming influential figure in the system and children isn’t a point I’m willing to take on in the next few years because it won’t be from the starting point of what is best for all.
When I started looking through what is best for all – it was clear to me that until an Equal Money System won’t be established, there is no place for children in my life because children takes time which is the only thing I do not have – Time.
The day I’ve made the decision to not have babies till this point would be a point that is best for all, I became relaxed within and as my human physical body – no more possession, no more running away. The decision to not have children in a way allowed me to start actually Re-Birthing myself.
The reason why people want to have children and specifically women that are not within a relationship is because they do not want to feel alone. They know that the moment the child is here, it’s for life. They wouldn’t be alone again cause “family is unconditionally”. Only when the children grow older they understand that having children doesn’t mean not feeling alone. By then, it is too late.
I suggest to all of those that desire to have children to, for a moment, STOP. Look within yourself within self honesty at the origin point of the desire for children. Look at what are you hiding from yourself, what have your trained to believe and become, why do you want your own flesh and blood child instead of adopting one that is already here.
We must realize how fucked we are as a mind consciousness system and be self responsible, be self honest. One always knows the truth of one self if one dares to look.
Ask yourself if the desire to have children support what is best for all or only what is best for you, in this current money system we live in and as.
Ask yourself why you are willing to commit to a baby but do not commit to yourself.
Ask yourself why you allowing yourself to bring a baby to this abusive planet instead of taking responsibility for earth by supporting Equality?
Ask yourself if you are self honest – if you say you are – you are in a deep problem.
If you admit you are not – I suggest investigating Desteni and the ‘Desteni I Process’.
Thanks.
Family for Equality 